My July Photos

Hi again!

Here are some photos that I took using my smart phone. It was a rainy July here in the Philippines and I love it when it rains so I take a photo when I can. I bring my phone wherever I go and this is what I do now. I wanted to share these photos aside from my July Photography Challenge because a lot has happened that month.

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I’m in a love/hate relationship with rain but either way, there’s always a rainbow after it and I think that’s very cool.

I just went to a LANY concert yesterday and I’m still hyped about it. I might blog about it later on. Anyways, I cannot wait to share my August Photos with you! 🙂

 

❤ Pauline

Words Are Magic

Whether the musicians or scientists said it, words and quotes have always been one of life’s greatest gifts. Understanding words have always been very difficult. I, myself enjoy reading and quotes always stay with me. I like them written on my journal, on my wall or in any notebook I have because whenever I read them, I remember what journey I had when I read that book or what song I listened to at that moment.

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I know about not less than a thousand songs in my head. I’ve read a lot of books and poems and it is amazing how those words are stored in my mind. I’ve also been called a lot of things in my 22 years of existence and it just shows that not all words are perfect. However, having read and understand a lot of lyrics from songs gave me a boost. Even a simple “Stay Alive, For Me” helped me through my days and mostly nights.

Even this photo uplifts me (Image from Tumblr)

Words are complicated but there’s beauty in them too. They have this magic that you never knew you needed. You’re having a bad day or having the time of your life? There’s always quotes for those. There’s also this specific sentence that just sums up your life, well, maybe not entirely but you know what I mean.

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I love quotes. I may not make one as good as the ones that I know but I can always use them and make many mistakes with them. What’s important is that they stay. Words are wonderful. They’re not all good but they’re also not all bad.

Did a quote just magically appear into your head?

 

✨ Pauline

So Sad Today by Melissa Broder

If I could give a 10 stars for this book, I’d have done it already. Multiple times. I often read young adult novels and fiction, this is actually the first non-fiction book I’ve read that stuck to my head.

It started out on Twitter. I was scrolling and came across this tweet that made me laugh and then cry because I could relate so much it hurt and then I started to follow that account ever since. I follow the Twitter account @sosadtoday for quite a while now and just found out that she has published a book of personal essays. I don’t know what got to me but I told myself that I have to get that book right away (plus the cover looks aesthetically pleasing). There’s something about her thoughts about life that I can relate to. This book of personal essays really opened my mind about things and I know I will never understand what she’s been through but somehow, I felt like I’ve been through that too.

It doesn’t tell the reader to be sad. It just explains why/how you are sad. At least that’s what I understood while reading the essays. At first It was weird because of how much I can relate but later on, I just went along with it. All the weirdness, openness and rawness of it.

✨ Pauline

Said and Done by John O’Callaghan

How often do you look back?

Really reflect on what you’ve done.

The insignificance of it all.

Pointless arguments, inside jokes, funny haircuts.

But do you ever wonder how you will be remembered?

Or if what you’ve done and what you’re doing means anything at all?

What will your songs sound like when you’re dead and gone?

Will tears fall when the last note is sung?

And how will your story be told?

And will your words leave a bitter taste in their mouths, or will they even remember you at all?

Compassion.

The concept is rather simple.

Most know what it means to be civil, but there truly is a fine line between sweet and sour.

Give too much of yourself away and you’ll be all used up, not enough and no one will be around to share this with.

So what is it that motivates us to be better, gentler, more refined?

I’d like to think it’s those close to us, close to the heart and soul.

Those who carried you to the car after you puked on their shoes.

Those who took the blame for breaking the window when it was you who cast the stone.

Those who will be by your side when reality knocks on your door, both good and bad.

But more importantly, those whose stories you will share with your kids, and grand-kids, and their kids, and their grand-kids, in hopes to somehow keep this all alive.

Chivalry, decency, kindness, compassion, desire, strength.

How will you be remembered?


Another poem by John O’Callaghan to get me through the night.

 

❤ Pauline

It’s Kind Of A Funny Story

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“It’s so hard to talk when you want to kill yourself.”

This first sentence from the book was all it took for me to dive in.

Story

The story is about Craig, a 16-year-old student from an executive high school in New York. He is determined to succeed in life, to get perfect grades, get into a college that he wants, and to raise a family. By doing so, he was overcome by pressure and anxiety. He stops eating, and sleeping and then depression hits, he nearly kills himself. He then checked himself in the hospital where he wasn’t treated like a sick patient. He met some people who has inspired and changed him along the way.

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There are books that I like then there are books like these. They make me feel things that I cannot explain. I just get so hooked on it that I finish them in just one sitting. It was written that the author also spent his time in a mental ward and it just makes the story even more interesting, knowing that he also experienced what the character experienced. There are some parts of the book that didn’t make sense to me, for instance, his thoughts on eating and other patients’ illnesses but there are other parts that stick to me, like him making a brain map and his thoughts in general, they still make me remember and think. I can relate at some point, maybe I just feel sympathetic about that character. The setting was also very intriguing. The author made me feel as though I’ve been there, and being a white collar worker, I’ve had my own hospital experiences and it’s nothing like in the book. There are no identical characters, every one is different and that’s what I also liked about it.

I remember the first time I watched the movie adaptation of this book, I was moved by it even if I didn’t get a chance to see the beginning part. I often experience this by watching a movie the first time so that was a good feeling. After that movie, it got me thinking and then I researched about it and I found out that it was from a book by an author who has an unforgettable name and story, Ned Vizzini. I collected most of his books and to this day, I still try not to cry remembering him, knowing that I will never get a chance to have my books signed by him. This book serves as an inspiration to me in every way. This isn’t just a book about suicide or depression. This book helped me through tough times, when losing someone and growing up, facing the challenges. I have shared this book to people who are close to me and to people who were also intrigued. There’s nothing I’d like more than to share one of my favorites to other people and I will continue to do so.

✨ Pauline