2018 journal

I’m back!

I’ve been journaling since last year. It helps me a lot in many ways and it’s one of the reasons why I’m often offline. I did art back in elementary school and I remember the feeling that I’ve experienced back then. As an adult, that feeling turned into doubt and I’ve had a hard time processing it. Now, I’m doing art again for fun and I’ve been doing this for a while. I’ve learnt a lot in the process and I’m helping myself reveal my artistic side of things.

I’ve printed some stickers and pretty things to include in my journal. I admit, I’m not that artistic. I get help from the internet and I do things from there. Having a printer is a plus. You can search some art inspiration online like I do. I mostly search images on Pinterest that inspires me, I sometimes recreate them if I’m not too lazy and my self confidence is not too low that moment. There are a lot of creative people there and they make me happy.

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I’ve bought some stamps and they add some vintage vibe on my journal. I’m aiming for minimal but sometimes I tend to overdo but I don’t care as long as I like what I see and it made me happy. I also like to paste some dried flowers just because.

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One of the best things to do while journaling is to listen to some good music. Each of us have a different taste in music, which helps us concentrate and feel good. As for me, I like to listen to some indie pop at the moment. The acoustic and ukulele vibe just gets to me while doing stuff.

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You can find inspiration everywhere. The best thing about these is that there is no right or wrong. You can make your art just the way you like and it may also be the reflection of you as a person, if you’re ready to spill yourself on paper. You will see your artistic progress throughout the year and you may go back to some specific day of your life and reminisce.

Just grab your spiral notebook and pink-inked pen and write away!

❤ Pauline


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Hi there!

I missed shooting portraits. It’s one of the things that makes me sane and I have no idea how I lack time to do it these days. Maybe I need a new camera? New lens? New subjects? Just kidding. I also miss my friends and I haven’t even taken some of their portraits yet. U g h. I need to schedule with them right now.

Anyway, remember that blog post of mine where I told you about my first time shooting portraits? Well, here it is! My first ever shooting session with my very good friend, Chams! She’s one of the best, to be honest. (Also, you should check out her blog.)

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We did this out of curiosity. We had cameras and then the next day, we went shooting together. I remembered how fun it was, roaming around the University of the Philippines and parking lots.

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The sunset was pretty that day. Which added to the aesthetics I was aiming for. At first, I had no idea what I was doing. What setting is for this thing and what percent is for that thing, but there’s always auto. HAHAHA!

And here are some of my photos that Chams took:



Hope you like ’em!

🌻 pauline

Neon Nights

A spontaneous night with your friends is always the best. There’s not much to say except that neon lights add uniqueness and detail which makes your subject more attractive. Here are some of the photos that I took of different nights with these lovely people; Maricar, Gelo and Chams. I hope you like ’em!









I apologize if they got mixed up. I’m just excited to share my photos with you again.

✨ Pauline

Camera used: Nikon D3200/50mm

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October Playlist

Hello, earthlings!

How are you? I’ve been feeling a little at ease lately and wanted to share some songs that helped made me face my day-to-day life. I liked most of these because of their lyrics, sometime it’s the beat, either way, these made me happy and they got me going. Check ’em out!

1. 26 by Paramore

“hold on to hope if you got it

don’t let it go for nobody

they say that dreaming is free

but i wouldn’t care what it cost me.”

2. Hiding Tonight by Alex Turner

“tomorrow i’ll be stronger, running colorful

no longer just in black and white

and i’m quite alright hiding tonight.”

3. Scars To Your Beautiful by Alessia Cara

“no better you than the you that you are

no better life the life we’re living.”

4. you said okay by flatsound

“and it was then i realized you were not my world

you were my universe.”

5. How Do You Feel? by The Maine

“to all the dearly depressed and broken hearted

the in-betweens and all the torn ones too

you’re not alone in how you’re feeling.”

6. Between The Bars by Elliot Smith

“the pressure of days, do what I say

and I’ll make you okay, and drive them away.”

7. Landslide by Oh Wonder

“and I know you feel like everything is falling to the wind

but don’t you let the thunder in.”

8. The Fault In Our Stars by Troye Sivan

“don’t give it up just yet

stay grand for one more minute.”

9. Demons by Imagine Dragons

“your eyes, they shine so bright, i wanna save that light

i can’t escape this now, unless you show me how.”

10. Truce by Twenty One Pilots

“the sun will rise and we will try again.”

These songs are close to my heart and I’m glad I shared them with you. I hope you find time to listen to them and tell me what you think.



My July Photos

Hi again!

Here are some photos that I took using my smart phone. It was a rainy July here in the Philippines and I love it when it rains so I take a photo when I can. I bring my phone wherever I go and this is what I do now. I wanted to share these photos aside from my July Photography Challenge because a lot has happened that month.




I’m in a love/hate relationship with rain but either way, there’s always a rainbow after it and I think that’s very cool.

I just went to a LANY concert yesterday and I’m still hyped about it. I might blog about it later on. Anyways, I cannot wait to share my August Photos with you! 🙂


❤ Pauline

So Sad Today by Melissa Broder

If I could give a 10 stars for this book, I’d have done it already. Multiple times. I often read young adult novels and fiction, this is actually the first non-fiction book I’ve read that stuck to my head.

It started out on Twitter. I was scrolling and came across this tweet that made me laugh and then cry because I could relate so much it hurt and then I started to follow that account ever since. I follow the Twitter account @sosadtoday for quite a while now and just found out that she has published a book of personal essays. I don’t know what got to me but I told myself that I have to get that book right away (plus the cover looks aesthetically pleasing). There’s something about her thoughts about life that I can relate to. This book of personal essays really opened my mind about things and I know I will never understand what she’s been through but somehow, I felt like I’ve been through that too.

It doesn’t tell the reader to be sad. It just explains why/how you are sad. At least that’s what I understood while reading the essays. At first It was weird because of how much I can relate but later on, I just went along with it. All the weirdness, openness and rawness of it.

✨ Pauline

It’s Kind Of A Funny Story


“It’s so hard to talk when you want to kill yourself.”

This first sentence from the book was all it took for me to dive in.


The story is about Craig, a 16-year-old student from an executive high school in New York. He is determined to succeed in life, to get perfect grades, get into a college that he wants, and to raise a family. By doing so, he was overcome by pressure and anxiety. He stops eating, and sleeping and then depression hits, he nearly kills himself. He then checked himself in the hospital where he wasn’t treated like a sick patient. He met some people who has inspired and changed him along the way.


There are books that I like then there are books like these. They make me feel things that I cannot explain. I just get so hooked on it that I finish them in just one sitting. It was written that the author also spent his time in a mental ward and it just makes the story even more interesting, knowing that he also experienced what the character experienced. There are some parts of the book that didn’t make sense to me, for instance, his thoughts on eating and other patients’ illnesses but there are other parts that stick to me, like him making a brain map and his thoughts in general, they still make me remember and think. I can relate at some point, maybe I just feel sympathetic about that character. The setting was also very intriguing. The author made me feel as though I’ve been there, and being a white collar worker, I’ve had my own hospital experiences and it’s nothing like in the book. There are no identical characters, every one is different and that’s what I also liked about it.

I remember the first time I watched the movie adaptation of this book, I was moved by it even if I didn’t get a chance to see the beginning part. I often experience this by watching a movie the first time so that was a good feeling. After that movie, it got me thinking and then I researched about it and I found out that it was from a book by an author who has an unforgettable name and story, Ned Vizzini. I collected most of his books and to this day, I still try not to cry remembering him, knowing that I will never get a chance to have my books signed by him. This book serves as an inspiration to me in every way. This isn’t just a book about suicide or depression. This book helped me through tough times, when losing someone and growing up, facing the challenges. I have shared this book to people who are close to me and to people who were also intrigued. There’s nothing I’d like more than to share one of my favorites to other people and I will continue to do so.

✨ Pauline