So Sad Today by Melissa Broder

If I could give a 10 stars for this book, I’d have done it already. Multiple times. I often read young adult novels and fiction, this is actually the first non-fiction book I’ve read that stuck to my head.

It started out on Twitter. I was scrolling and came across this tweet that made me laugh and then cry because I could relate so much it hurt and then I started to follow that account ever since. I follow the Twitter account @sosadtoday for quite a while now and just found out that she has published a book of personal essays. I don’t know what got to me but I told myself that I have to get that book right away (plus the cover looks aesthetically pleasing). There’s something about her thoughts about life that I can relate to. This book of personal essays really opened my mind about things and I know I will never understand what she’s been through but somehow, I felt like I’ve been through that too.

It doesn’t tell the reader to be sad. It just explains why/how you are sad. At least that’s what I understood while reading the essays. At first It was weird because of how much I can relate but later on, I just went along with it. All the weirdness, openness and rawness of it.

✨ Pauline

It’s Kind Of A Funny Story

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“It’s so hard to talk when you want to kill yourself.”

This first sentence from the book was all it took for me to dive in.

Story

The story is about Craig, a 16-year-old student from an executive high school in New York. He is determined to succeed in life, to get perfect grades, get into a college that he wants, and to raise a family. By doing so, he was overcome by pressure and anxiety. He stops eating, and sleeping and then depression hits, he nearly kills himself. He then checked himself in the hospital where he wasn’t treated like a sick patient. He met some people who has inspired and changed him along the way.

Thoughts

There are books that I like then there are books like these. They make me feel things that I cannot explain. I just get so hooked on it that I finish them in just one sitting. It was written that the author also spent his time in a mental ward and it just makes the story even more interesting, knowing that he also experienced what the character experienced. There are some parts of the book that didn’t make sense to me, for instance, his thoughts on eating and other patients’ illnesses but there are other parts that stick to me, like him making a brain map and his thoughts in general, they still make me remember and think. I can relate at some point, maybe I just feel sympathetic about that character. The setting was also very intriguing. The author made me feel as though I’ve been there, and being a white collar worker, I’ve had my own hospital experiences and it’s nothing like in the book. There are no identical characters, every one is different and that’s what I also liked about it.

I remember the first time I watched the movie adaptation of this book, I was moved by it even if I didn’t get a chance to see the beginning part. I often experience this by watching a movie the first time so that was a good feeling. After that movie, it got me thinking and then I researched about it and I found out that it was from a book by an author who has an unforgettable name and story, Ned Vizzini. I collected most of his books and to this day, I still try not to cry remembering him, knowing that I will never get a chance to have my books signed by him. This book serves as an inspiration to me in every way. This isn’t just a book about suicide or depression. This book helped me through tough times, when losing someone and growing up, facing the challenges. I have shared this book to people who are close to me and to people who were also intrigued. There’s nothing I’d like more than to share one of my favorites to other people and I will continue to do so.

✨ Pauline